IT!

I just have to say: I love working in IT. Really. I love it. It gives me an out for my geek-ness. I get to socialize in some way with everyone in the company at one time or another. I honestly enjoy working with computers. I have to learn new things, like how to setup an office domain in more than one physical location so that it works like it is one network. And I love it!

I could use a few more $$ an hour though. ;-)

Awesome Stuff I Found on the Internets Today

As I peruse the internet for things that interest me, I gather little tidbits, photos, videos, and such. Here are a few that I've found the last few days that I have yet to associate with a blog post:

In honor of Breast Cancer Awareness Month:

It made me more aware.

As an 'old geek' I find this comic hilarious:

Remember to always take your picture with the Flash:

Officially the best pumpkin carving EVER:

Sick!

It has finally happened. I am sick. I'm sure I have the beginnings of a flu, or flu-like illness. The in-laws we visited 2 days ago are all sick today, and my body is super achy, I am more tired than ever, and I spent all morning concentrating on not puking.

The nausea got better as the day progressed, so I am hopeful...

I just can't miss work. Either of them. So, even if I'm puking out vital organ bits, I have to be up at 1:30am to go to FedEx. My 14 hour day is not optional, and therefore, I cannot be sick, whether I am or not.

:-(

Am I the 99%?

I have debt. I have lots of debt. I have soul-crushing amounts of debt. I lie in bed at night stressing it. It affects my relationships through lack of sleep and an over abundance of stress. I work 70 hours a week just to drown more slowly.

I guess I am part of the 99%.

But then, I wonder...

No one forced debt upon me. All if it is in direct result of decisions I made. Although, some of it was taken on with certain plans in mind, like career opportunities that are no longer possible. Some was taken on because I had an extremely sick wife, and doctors like to be paid. Some was built up slowly over a long period of unemployment, and then another, albeit shorter one, a few months later.

I guess that makes me a hybrid.

I have debt that I naively assumed. I didn't understand where it would lead, and I was fooled by false promises. My fault.

I have debt that life circumstance forced me into. I saw no other alternatives, and I still don't.

Am I angry at the system that facilitated my financial ruin, like those 'occupy' people? Yeah. Hell yeah!

But...

I am angry at myself, too. I'm angry at myself for not learning more about the consequences before signing. I was short-sighted and greedy and gullible.

I suffer and my family suffers. I have been a burden to my loved ones.

It's my fault. Not solely my fault. But I'd say at least 60% my fault.

I think one of the major problems with people today is the inability to take responsibility for their decisions. You have to place blame where blame is due.

Geek on Geek Analysis

geek  (ɡiːk)
— n
1.	a person who is preoccupied with or very knowledgeable about computing
2.	a boring and unattractive social misfit
3.	a degenerate

4. (I added this one) Someone who likes something.

The word 'geek' has evolved somewhat to include more than just those of us that love computers and technology. There are now various sects of geek-dom, such as sports geeks, various movies geeks, and fashion geeks.

Now, some of these geeks prefer to use other names, like 'fashionista' or 'couch potato'. In fact, sports geeks in particular get pretty mad when you refer to them as such. But let's keep it real here. 

Geeks is what they is.

I am an old school geek. I love computers and Star Wars. The two originators of geek-dom. I guess we can throw Star Trek in there as an originator as well. But then all these other non-geeks saw our enjoyment of our geekiness and adopted it into their own interests.

Geeks, historically, have shared at least a common understanding of the overall premise of geek-dom. While we may not like the same thing, we still understood each other. And any rivalry (like with those stupid trekkies) was mostly in good fun.

However, there is quite a bit of real ire between some geek factions today. For example, PC/Droid geeks and Apple geeks. Or Sports geeks and any other geek. It's sad, really, that that basic understanding of one another is gone in some circles.

Really, I have no point to this post. I just wanted to post the pic and video.

So, what are your opinions on geeks? What kind of geek are you? What kind of geek do you hate? Do my rambling posts bother you?

I Was Maybe a Little Hasty

I have been trying to accomplish the new goals I set for myself. Really, I have.

Life, however, is still getting the better of me.

I decided a slight revision of the goals is in order.

My new goals...goal...is to quit FedEx Ground. All other goals, while of super importance to me, will wait until this one goal is achieved. I will do it, and hopefully soon.

Until then, I will try not to be a zombie the best I can.

A World of Difference

I'm somewhat saddened by the way I've been living for the past few months. I was overwhelmed and had to let some things go by the wayside. Unfortunately, it was some of the things I needed most in my life that I let go.

I didn't ditch my family, if that's what you're thinking. What I did ditch was my exercise and healthy eating habits.

I have to tell you, though, it's a lot harder to get back into healthy habits than it is to stay in them. I am so sore today that any movement is excruciating. But, that's what happens when let your muscles go dormant and then shock them with a surprise workout.. I've been so addicted to sugars lately too, I am actually having withdrawal. I'd punch a nun for a carbohydrate right now.

And it's only day 2. Seriously.

As far as my goals go, I've not written as much as I think I need to. I'll work on it.

Oh, and then there's caffeine. How I miss it! What was I thinking giving it up?

Moving Forward

I have recently, in an effort to make my life a little more fulfilling, set some new goals. They are a few things that  I want to do, and that I think will make my life better.

Here they are:

1. Run in and finish the Utah Valley Marathon on June 9, 2012. If I can also qualify for the Boston Marathon at the same time, that'd be shiny.
2. Exercise 6 days a week. This should really be a sub-bullet to #1, since they are pretty closely tied. 
3. Get a six-pack. Abs, not beer. Also maybe tied to #s 1 and 2. 
4. Write a book. A novel, really. And, though not specifically one of my goals, I would hope to get it published as well.
5. Write every day. Again, a goal tied to the one above it. But I won't make the big ones without the small ones. Hopefully I can get this blogging thing down a little better as well.
6. Buy a house. You know, to live in.
7. Forsake caffeine. Forever.
8. Graduate from College. This one is a tough one. I don't believe that the established collegiate education system is in any way a good one. But, after you jump through their hoops, they give you some fancy TP with your name on. That worthless piece of paper somehow makes you earn more money in life.
9. Research, develop, and implement a retirement preparation plan. Sure, I probably wont live that long, but it's better safe than sorry. And I want my loved ones taken care of.
10. Find a way to serve someone everyday. There's nothing like taking the focus of your life of your self to gain a little perspective. I also truly believe that loving and helping others is the only way to make it into the upper echelons of heaven.

That, Ladies and Gents, is my list of goals for the foreseeable future. I am sure that things will be added and taken away as life moves forward. But, you can only really say that you are moving forward if you've actually established a direction you want to go. It's time to stop wandering.